I flicked on the television, but I couldn’t concentrate. I knew no matter what he’d said that I’d fucked up. Even though he hadn’t screamed at me, I could feel the wall between us. Why the hell he was giving me another chance, I didn’t know. I was grateful, of course, but I wondered if he would ever trust me again. Hell, I wouldn’t trust me if I were him, so why should he? It just fucking sucked because I haven’t been so attracted to someone in such a long time. Maybe I subconsciously wanted to fuck things up because I didn’t feel I deserved someone as wonderful as Martinez.
“Hey, how’d it go?” Matt asked, breaking in my reverie. I hadn’t even heard him come in, which was how deep in thought I’d been. Banana was sound asleep in his arms, and he had a Kowalski bag dangling from his hand. “Banana ice cream,” he mouthed, holding up the bag. My heart smote me. I was the one who’d promised to get the ice cream, and Matt was the one who’d followed through. What did I ever do to deserve such wonderful men in my life, and why didn’t I treat them better?
“Ice cream,” Banana said sleepily, stirring in Matt’s arms. “Uncle Matt, I want ice cream. You promised.” Actually, I promised.
“Ok, doll, but then you have to go to bed, ok?” Matt carried Banana to the kitchen, and I was right behind him. He handed Banana over to me while he scooped up two balls of ice cream in a small bowl. We went back into the living room so Banana could eat. I turned off the television and watched in amusement as Banana struggled with her tiredness in order to eat her ice cream.

“I’m glad the bitch is dead,” Mr. Jenson shouts, spraying spit on Lyle’s face.