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Out of Sight, Into Mind; chapter fourteen, part two

“Can I get some of that?”  Matt asked sarcastically, pointing his chopsticks at the pork.  I pretended to think it over before reluctantly handing him the platter.

“Me, too, A-go,” Banana said, using the Taiwanese honorific for grandmother which my mother had taught to her.

“Sure, Banana,” Mom beamed, grabbing the platter from Matt before he was through.  My mother heaped a generous portion on Banana’s plate and handed her a fork.  Banana tried to use her chopsticks for a few minutes before giving up.  She was getting better, but some things were just beyond her ken.

“So, how is everything, Scarlett?”  My father asked between bites.  He didn’t ask just to be polite—oh, no, he really wanted to know.  Unfortunately, everything I wanted to talk about couldn’t be mentioned in front of Banana.

“Um, ok.  I’m sort of seeing someone,” I said cautiously, glancing at Matt.  He was too absorbed in eating as much food as fast as possible to pay the slightest bit of attention to me.

“Ma told me.  A detective?”  My father asked cheerfully.  “At least you’ll be safe with a police officer.”

“What about Uncle Matt?”  Banana asked, putting her fork down.  “I thought you lived with Uncle Matt!”  She looked from Matt to me and back again, and Matt indicated that it was my ballgame.

“We’re roommates, Banana,” I said gently, not wanting to add any more grief to her life.  “We’re really good friends.  We are not boyfriend and girlfriend.”

“Why not?  Don’t you love each other?”  Now Banana’s chin was trembling, and I knew she was seconds away from tears.  My father looked sorry he had said anything, though I was the one who’d brought up the date.

“I love him as a friend,” I explained, not sure how to put it so a three-year old would understand.  “Um, I met this other man who I like as something other than a friend.”

“Oh.”  Banana was quiet for a minute before turning to my mother.  “A-go, can I have some tea?”

“Sure, honey,” Mom said, relieved that the mini-storm was over.

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Out of Sight, Into Mind; chapter fourteen, part one

“Scar, I’m going over to Kayla’s after work.  Wanna join me?  Give me a call.”  I found this note on the dining room table when I got up in the morning.  No apology, no nothing.  In a way, I was glad as the note was something Matt would normally write to me.  I had to be at Julia’s at one, and we had to be at Mom’s at six.  It would be cutting it short, and I wondered if we should go to Kayla’s after.  Then I remembered that we’d have Banana, so it wouldn’t be a good idea to be out after eight or nine.  Damn.  I called Matt.

“Matt Reynolds.”  Matt’s professional voice was much different from his normal one, and I almost didn’t recognize it.

“Hey, it’s me.  We have to be at my mom’s at six.  I have to be at Julia’s at one.  I’ll be bringing Banana with me, which means we can’t go to Kayla’s after Mom’s.”

“We’re going to your mother’s?”  Matt sounded puzzled, even though I had mentioned it to him last night.

“Yes, I told you when you got home.  Right before you hit on me the first time.  Can you get out of work by, say, four?”  I knew the gang would have a fit if I left that early, but some things superseded work.

“No can do.  I have a meeting with a juvie at four-thirty.”  Matt sounded frustrated, as he should.  “Shit.  What about tomorrow?  It’s Saturday.”

“Sure.  Let’s do it early.”  I hesitated before adding, “I have a date with Martinez at eight.”  I waited for the fallout, but it didn’t come.

“Does that mean you’re kicking me out of the apartment again,” Matt teased, all earlier signs of a snit gone.

“No, I’m going to his place this time.  He’s cooking for me.”

“As it should be.”

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Out of Sight, Into Mind; chapter thirteen, part three

We migrated to the living room where we hashed out everything we knew.  We both thought that the club should be the center of our focus, but we differed on the most likely candidate.  Matt insisted that Digger was involved, but that was his prejudice talking.  I thought we needed to talk to the girls in depth because who knew Kayla better than her coworkers?  Besides, with the way she was blackmailing some of them, more than one stripper had a reason for wanting to do her harm.  Then, of course, there was the drug dealer.  He had my money for being the one who’d taken Kayla and killed the other woman.  From Kayla’s description of him, he sounded like the most ruthless of the bunch.  If it was him, he wanted his coke back.  Where the fuck we’d find that, I didn’t know.  I mean, if Kayla hadn’t blown through it all.  It must be somewhere in her house, but wouldn’t the cops have found it?  Not if she hadn’t wanted it to be found.  I started when the doorbell rang, but I got up to let Martinez in.  To my dismay, Daily trailed behind him.

“Where is this alleged email,” she barked, doing away with pleasantries.  It was clear from the expression on her face that she thought I was making it up.  That, or she’d heard about Martinez’s date and wasn’t pleased about it.  The way she was glaring at me, I’d bet on the latter.

“This way,” Matt said, starting towards his room.

“You stay here,” Daily snarled at me as she trotted after Matt.  I caught Martinez by the arm before he could follow.

“How are you?”  I asked, keeping my voice low.  He looked about ten years older than he had a mere hour ago, so I assumed it hadn’t gone well.

“Not well,” Martinez said honestly, trying to smile.  “She was the only child of two elderly people whose lives centered around her.  The mother had to be sedated.”  I winced in sympathy, giving him a quick kiss on the cheek.

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Out of Sight, Into Mind; chapter thirteen, part two

I suggested coffee and moving to the living room.  Martinez must have had similar thoughts to mine because he agreed with alacrity.  I went into the kitchen to brew the coffee, insisting that he leave the dishes for later.  I’d make Matt do them when he got home if I had to, but I wasn’t going to waste a minute more than I had to in the meantime.  I waited for the coffee to perk, using the time to center my thoughts.  My hormones were raging out of control, and I didn’t want to come across as a slut.  Oh, I was one, but I didn’t want it to appear that I was too easy.  As soon as the coffee was ready, I brought it to the living room, where Martinez sprang up from the futon upon my entry.

I could tell by the expression on his face that he was as tentative as I.  That made me feel marginally better, that he wasn’t just on the prowl.  We did a bit more talking about previous relationship-.  He had been engaged to a fellow officer a few years ago before they realized that they couldn’t handle being together both at the job and in their personal lives.  The split was mutual, and she eventually transferred to Miami to be closer to her family.  She was a Latina, one of two in the whole department.  It was difficult being a person of color in Minnesota—let alone a woman of color in the Minneapolis Police Department.  Martinez didn’t blame her for returning to Miami, but he had no desire to go with her or to return to Philly.

I told him about the man I thought I was in love with—until I realized he was dogging me from day one.  I made light of it, but it had hurt at the time.  Matt had warned me at the time about this guy’s reputation—I met him through Matt.  He was a friend of a friend of Matt’s—but I hadn’t listened.  I was sure I was in love and that I knew what I was doing.  Besides, he was Asian to boot.  That was a definite plus in my book, something that Matt couldn’t understand.  He didn’t know what it was like to grow up a minority in a state like Minnesota.

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Out of Sight, Into Mind; chapter thirteen, part one

The minute I got home, I got to work.  First, however, I laughed at the bouquet of daffodils that Matt had left for me on the dining room table, wishing me luck with my date.  He ended the note with a terse, ‘You were right’.  I knew we’d have to talk about it, but I didn’t want to think about it just now.  I stowed the daffodils in my bedroom, not wanting Martinez to get the wrong impression.  I changed out of my clothes and quickly called Martinez to make sure he knew about the dead woman—he did.  Then, I hurried to the kitchen to get cracking.  I made dumplings and egg rolls, having procured the skins from the Asian market near my apartment.  I kept glancing at my clock because I’d need at least half an hour to make myself beautiful.  I pulled out the radish cake my mother had given me from the freezer as well as the sticky rice.  My mother was a fantastic cook, and she always made me take stuff with me when I left her place.  I had to eat it quickly, however, or Matt would finish it off for me.  He loved my mother’s cooking.

Once everything was well under way, I took a quick shower—not leaving the stove on—without washing my hair.  Afterwards, I put on a red silk tank top that emphasized my breasts and a black skirt that fell to my knees. I didn’t put on shoes, of course, as I was Asian.  We didn’t wear shoes in the house—it struck me as ludicrous to do so.  I added gold dangly earrings and a few gold bracelets and considered myself accessorized.  I didn’t wear makeup for the most part and grudgingly consented to put some clear gloss on my lips.  I brushed my shoulder-length hair until it shone, then nodded in satisfaction.  It struck me funny that I was entertaining Martinez—Carlos—at my place for a first date.  Normally, I’d be too leery of a guy to do that, but he was a cop, for God’s sake.  Plus, he was so fucking cute.  I went to the kitchen to check on the food.  As I started setting the table, the phone rang.

“Hello?”  I picked up the cordless so I could continue setting the table.

“A-ya!  You can’t even call your mother to tell her about the news?  That girl is dead, and you don’t bother calling?”

“Mom,” I sighed, vowing I’d check Caller ID from now on.  “It wasn’t her.”

“What?”  My mother screeched, her voice nearly piercing my eardrum.

“Listen, I can’t talk right now.  I’m watching Banana for the weekend while Julia—tends to some business in New York.  May Matt, Banana and I come for dinner tomorrow night?”

“Of course,” Mom said, her attention easily diverted.  “How is poor Matt?  And dear little Banana!”

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Out of Sight, Into Mind; chapter twelve, part two

“Auntie Scar, are you leaving again?”  Her voice was reproachful, and I turned to find an upset Banana staring at me.

“Banana, I just need some air,” I said, trying to smile.  I also tried to calm the rage inside because I didn’t want to unnerve Banana any more than she already was.  “Uncle Bobby just said some things to upset me.  I need to cool down.”

“When I’m mad, I scream real loud,” Banana confided, her scowl lightening.  “That makes me feel better.”  She stepped forward and slipped her hand into mine.  Looking up at me, she allowed her lower lip to tremble.  “I wish I could do it right now.”

“Scar, you have to—”  Julia stopped when she saw me and Banana holding hands.  “What’s going on?  Are you ok, baby?”  The last was directed towards Banana who ignored her mother.

“Can I go with you, Auntie Scar?  Please?”  Banana squeezed my hand as hard as she could.  “I can cheer you up—honest.”  I was about to answer when my cell phone rang..

“Hold on a second, honey,” I said, disengaging from Banana’s clench.  I hurried into the living room to take my call, watching out of the corner of my eye as Julia knelt to hug a stiff Banana.

“She died around midnight,” Matt said without preamble.  “My cop friend said she was killed somewhere else, then dumped in her house.  She was found on her bed, tied down spread-eagle by the cops.  They got an ‘anonymous tip’ to check out her house—so they did.  My friend told me she was so beat up, they could barely recognize her.”  His voice was hollow, as if he didn’t have the energy to put anything into it.

“I’m so sorry, Matt,” I said, sinking onto the couch.  I didn’t know what to say as I felt there was very little I could do. I had the sinking suspicion she had been raped as well from the way she was found, but that could just be misdirection. Just as I was about to add a meaningless platitude, a picture flashed into my mind

It was Kayla, and she was very much alive.  She was on her knees, pleading for her life—not her son’s, I noticed—to a man who simply laughed at her.  He had the coldest laugh I’d ever had the misfortune of hearing, and I had to force myself to look at him in detail.  He had an aura of menace about him, but I looked past that towards his face, his hair, his body.  He was over six-feet tall with the body of an ex-jock.  His brown hair combed back into a widow’s peak, and he had full, sensuous lips.  Somehow, that made it worse.  He should have been a thin, sparse man with not an ounce of flesh to spare.  Instead, he was almost voluptuous in a way that went against his personality.

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Out of Sight, Into Mind; chapter twelve, part one

“You alive?”  I asked, poking Matt in the stomach.  He was sprawled out on my bed and appeared to be dead to the world after a rousing round of sex.  “Hey, do I need to call 9-1-1?  You did say you wanted to die in the saddle.”

“Water,” Matt croaked, his arms and legs splayed to the side.  “Must have water.  Please, have mercy on a dying man.”

“Yeah, yeah, yeah,” I said, lying on my side so I could properly observe him.  He was a man unconscious, in more ways than one.  I noticed that his cock was hardening again, which was good news for me.  I decided to see what I could do to help the situation, but he swatted my hand away.

“It’s after midnight,” Matt groaned, rolling over to face me.  “Some of us have to get up tomorrow morning.”

“Some of us have a date tomorrow night,” I blurted out, wanting to get it over with.  I realized it wasn’t the most appropriate time, and it just slipped out.  I had already mentioned it, but I didn’t know if he remembered with everything that’d happened since.  “Do you think you could make yourself scarce tomorrow night….”  I trailed off at the amused look on Matt’s face.  “What?”  I asked defensively.

“Only you would have the balls to mention a date post-coitus,” Matt smirked, swatting me on the ass.  “Not a prob.  I’ll do anything to help you get in the good detective’s pants.”

“How do you know it’s him?”  I retorted.  It wouldn’t do for Matt to get too cocky.

“Who else you been mooning around lately?  It has to be Martinez.  You ain’t the only one with the sight.”  Matt reached over to stroke my breast, causing me to moan.

“Don’t tease me,” I said hoarsely, pushing his hand away.  “If you’re not going to play, then you can’t touch.”  I felt the tingling between my legs, and it took every ounce of willpower I possessed not to jump on top of him.

“Who says I’m teasing?”  Matt said, but he kept his distance.

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Out of Sight, Into Mind; chapter eleven, part three

“Mr. Digs,” I purred, putting the act on again.  I placed my hand in his and let my fingers tickle his palm.  “My name is Scarlett Hsu.  It’s a real pleasure to meet you.”  I was gratified to see that Digger hadn’t tired of women and had reacted nicely to my overture by grinning like a buffoon.  “This is my colleague, Matthias Reynolds.  Would you care to sit down and tell us more about the club?  It’s ever so interesting.”

“I would love to.”  Digger sat next to me with alacrity, nodding to Mia to bring him a drink.

“Do you have a girl named Kayla working here?  I think she works under the name of Circe,” I said, trying not to grimace.  The names of these women!  Really.

“Yes, what about her?”  Nothing but pure guile on his face.  I couldn’t tell if I’d shaken him up or not, so I had to push the issue.

“She’s in the hospital, you know,” I lied.  I wanted to see what he knew, and I watched his face closely.

“Yes, I heard.  So sad, especially after what happened to her boy.”  Not a flicker of guilt in his tone or his eyes.  Either he knew nothing or he was a consummate liar.  I leaned towards the latter, though I had no reason for saying that.

“Would she still have a job if she came back?  She’s a friend of mine, and I know she needs the money.”  I leaned forward slightly, allowing Digger to look down my dress.  I noticed that he was developing quite the lump in his pants, which was exactly what I was hoping to achieve.

“Honey, it’s a hard world, this world,” Digger began, staring for all he was worth.  “I would hate to see that poor gal lose her job, but, well, I need to fill her slot.”  That was more a non-answer than an answer, but I let it slide.  “You ever do any dancing?  I bet you’d be good.  I could give you an interview.”  Digger slid closer, his arm creeping around my waist.  I was glad we were sitting as his arm went over the steel bars of the backing of the chair.

“You don’t want me,” I said, the slightest edge noticeable in my laugh.  “I’m way too old to be a dancer.”

“You can’t be more than twenty-five,” Digger insisted, his hand somehow finding its way to my thigh/buttock.  He gave me a gentle squeeze which I tolerated in the interest of finding information.  Matt tensed, though he didn’t move a muscle.  I gave him a look which signified that he should just chill.  He made an attempt to calm down, but I knew it cost him a great deal.  I may not be his woman, but I was with him.  Proprietary habits died hard.

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Out of Sight, Into Mind; chapter eleven, part two

“But not like that,” Matt said, gesturing to my dress.  I stood on tiptoe and kissed him on the cheek, leaving an impression of my lips behind.  Great, I’d have to check my lip gloss before I left.  As I was about to step back, Matt grabbed me by the hips and pulled me closer.  He crushed my lips under his, completely ruining my lip gloss.  Before I could ruminate on that thought, he moved his hands to my ass and squeezed.  As usual, my body reacted by pressing itself further into him.  I could feel his erection digging into my belly, and I had to make a decision.  Two seconds more of this, and we weren’t going to the club for some time.  A sense of duty made me pull away from him and put space between us.

“Matt, we have to go soon,” I panted, giggling as I looked at his face.  He had lip gloss smeared all over his lips, and I knew I didn’t look much better.  “We’ll have to save this for another time.”

“Fuck the club,” Matt said hoarsely, taking a step towards me.  The look in his eyes told me that he wanted me more than he wanted information.  “Let’s go to my room.”  Two more steps and he’d be on top of me.

“Matt, come on,” I said, stepping back again.  As much as I wanted him, I knew I’d regret it if we didn’t go to the club—and what’s more, so would he.  Every day we let go without finding Danny meant one day closer to perhaps not finding him at all.  “We have to talk to Digger.  You have to take a rain check on this.”  I didn’t know if my talking had swayed him or not until he spoke.

“Ok, but you have to promise me one thing.”  I looked at him inquiringly, wondering what string he’d attach to my offer.  “You have to dress like this when I cash in on that rain check.  In fact, I want you to wear this dress.”  He grinned, looking slightly demented with his bruised lips.

“Oh, ok, you big brute,” I said, patting his arm.  He caught my hand and licked my palm, sending a thrill up my arm.  I gasped, unable to stop myself.

“You sure you want to take a rain check?”  Matt asked, sliding my thumb into his mouth.  My knees buckled, nearly dropping me to the floor.  Somehow, I managed to wrest my hand free of his and nod my head.  Not without giving him a dirty look, however, which caused him to chuckle.  He headed to the bathroom before I could do anything to him, namely jump his bones.  I whipped out my lipstick container because it had a small mirror in it and painstakingly recreated my lips.  After I finished, I sat on the futon to watch the game until Matt was ready.

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